Yep, I'm really tired. This whole healing from surgery thing is slow. I'm doing what I'm supposed to and resting, but I was too tired to wait for T to explain how tired I am some of the time.
I'm feeling this koala a lot of the time. Fatigue is very real every day. But so is....
Faith.
Yes, another F word. Faith is huge for me. First and foremost always is my faith in God.
A lot of other faith comes after that. From faith that I will one day not be so fraught with fatigue to faith that this slow down can actually be a fun phase to savor rather than fret about.
Okay, maybe that's too much alliteration for this Friday...see what I did there.
Anyway, faith in the middle of fatigue brings up a very biblical concept of being still. It's not the easiest thing to do. Most of us fidget. Hello, how many of those spinners are at your house? We stopped counting. To sit still and enjoy the movement of the clouds across the sky as they shift and reform isn't just for retired folks rocking on the porch or little kids calling out the shapes in the gathered white vapor we call clouds. There is a deep gift found in taking time to sit with a quiet space and a quiet mind to leave the to-do list and the must happen in another place and concentrate on the quiet.
Did you know that silence has a sound all it's own? It does. It's a form of music rarely appreciated and often feared.
So, you can wait for fatigue to land you in a place where you have no choice but to slow down or will you take time to find the slowness in a busy day?